Sunday, November 30, 2025

Part X: Thanksgiving! Tuna Fish Turkey?

 Part X: Thanksgiving!


Today, you get to look inside part of the convent. Don’t worry, I won’t be revealing any secrets. The Sisters deserve their privacy. But you need to see this particular photo to see how the Sisters feast on Thanksgiving. As a form of mortification for the salvation and sanctification of priests, Religious, and others for whom they pray, they practice abstinence from meat all year long. All life long, actually. That is how much they love you!


I asked if I could take this one photo as the meal was being brought in, in order to share it with you. Permission granted. If you happen to recognize the thumb of the Sister holding the tray, please keep it to yourself!



If you are viewing this on your phone, you may have to enlarge the photo a bit to see it clearly. This is one of the two tuna fish turkeys they baked for the main course! It is tuna fish somethingorother shaped into the form of a tukey’s body, legs, and wings, covered in bread dough, sprinkled with sage and maybe a few other turkey friendly spices, and baked until golden brown. These Sisters are a hoot!


There were also many other non-meat dishes, various vegetables, dressing, fruit, and things that I never thought to note and never got a photo of. There was one really cute edible turkey at each place setting. I took this photo of her, along with her big brother cardboard decoration in the background. At least I think she’s a she and he’s a he. They didn’t give me their pronouns, so I can’t be certain. You know how that goes.



This was the cutest little turkey! Made of a peanut butter and oatmeal concoction for the body, a cookie tail, and candy corn head, and a little bit of frosting for the eyes and neck waddle, and voilĂ , an edible decoration for everyone! As I said, these Sisters are a hoot. Or a gobble. Or just plain fun and creative as well as holy.


I also went to Fr. McElwee’s house to meet about 30 of his children and grandchildren. He is a retired Catholic priest who, years ago, before it was a “normal” thing, converted to Catholicism and was ordained as a Catholic priest. When I arrived, he was celebrating Mass in his garage, which he converted into a very nice chapel, with about a dozen family members. A nice Thanksgiving for all of them!


The day was, of course, a great one. Many hours of prayer, both silent and chanted. The Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. Silent holy hours, one with the Blessed Sacrament in the tabernacle and one with Him exposed in a monstrance. Two celebrations of the most religious of all of our nation’s secular holidays, one with the Sisters, one with the good Father. If only all of you reading this could have been there, it would have been perfect!


With prayers for your holiness,

Rev. Fr. Edwin Palka


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For those who wish to ask for prayers, discern a Vocation, or make donations:

This blog is not monetized, since, as a Catholic Priest, I don’t need much money. But if you wish to support the Filiae Laboris Mariae Sisters under my spiritual care, feel free to send them a note to: St. Joseph Convent, 1250 Hackberry Road, Redfield, KS 66769. They constantly pray, and their benefactors will get great spiritual rewards! That is also the address you can send snail mail to me. I suppose you already know or can guess my gmail address with the F*****P**** in front of it!



Friday, November 21, 2025

Part IX: Confessions of a Fidgeter

 Part IX: Confessions of a Fidgeter


Silence is Golden. Or so the saying goes. But fidgeters don’t see it that way. Sure, it’s ok with them if others around them are quiet, but they don’t seem to realize that their own noise is not “golden” to others. Case in point, me.


When I was in elementary school, I was always fidgeting, moving, finding reasons to get out of my chair, or just plain being active, even when just sitting in one place. You know, the boy who today is put on Ritalin. I was the kid who would tap his pencil. Incessantly. I thought nothing of it. If I was concentrating, I was tapping it. If I were bored (which was most of the time!) I would twirl it in my fingers, sharpen it, tap it, thump it, or at least roll it up and down the desk. I never understood why anyone else cared if I was doing it or not.


Then one fateful day, we were told that we had to start writing in pen. NO! How could I erase? But what a glorious day that turned out to be for a fidgeter! Stick pens were not much different than pencils as far as fidgeting with them goes, but a retractable pen? Jackpot! Oh, the fun of thumb movement and the joyful sound of click, click, clickety, click, click... For whatever reason, I could click that thing all day, and it is one reason I rarely use retractable pens in public even today! I could click it as I took a test, as I thought about what to write, as I listened to instructions (or at least pretended to), or twelve seconds after the exasperated teacher shouted, “Eddie, would you PLEASE (and not using “please” as a polite request, either) STOP CLICKING YOUR PEN!”


For writing, not fidgeting!


Fast forward to where I left off last week. As I explained, I was trying to be quiet quiet in the chapel, not just boy quiet. I managed to close the door as quietly as I could, genuflected, and knelt down at my spot. My prie-dieu is different from the Sisters’ prie-dieux. They have newer ones. I have an antique. The beauty of the carved wood makes no difference for this story, but the old, green velvet material certainly does.


As I had done multiple times each day, I knelt and placed my Breviary on the top, padded velvet part of the kneeler. But for the first time, I realized just how much noise the book made when I adjusted it by sliding it against the nap of the material. The pile, or nap, of the velvet is such that it lies down in one direction. It feels very smooth if you run your hand with the nap, but if you run your hand the other way, it lifts the bristles, very much like the Abominable Snowman petting Daffy Duck. (Hmmm...maybe I’ll name my prie-dieu “George.” Either you get it or you don’t.) Except that, for this fidgeter, the feeling of the bristling material was enticing enough to override the knowledge that it was making noise. “How much noise could it make?” you might ask. A lot more noise than the unavoidable but noticeable rustling of the Sisters’ habits whenever they move.


Oh, how often I had to scold myself on the first “quiet day” when I would realize that I was rubbing my thumbs the “wrong way” on the velvet as I was kneeling in prayer! I found myself transported back to elementary school, but this time I was both student and teacher. “Would you PLEASE (but not using this particular word and certainly not making a polite request as I chewed myself out) STOP MAKING RASPING NOISES WITH THE VELVET!”



But how? For years, I could fidget to my heart's content in the rectory chapel. As far as I know, Jesus never grew weary of the noise or constant movements I made. But here? I had to somehow train myself to be absolutely still. I tried using affirmations. “You can do this. It’s not too hard. You’re a big boy now,” I would tell myself over and over, even as I was subconsciously moving, adjusting, tapping, scratching, or otherwise fidgeting. Most of each Holy Hour for the next week or so was spent, not so much praying as concentrating on not doing everything that I was doing that made noise or could otherwise break someone else’s focus on God. 


I tried many things that should have worked. For instance, I knelt and clasped my hands together, interlocking my fingers so that they couldn’t skrrrchskerchskritch the velvet. But my fingers and thumbs acted like little schoolgirls who had just spent the day together in class, yet ran to embrace each other two minutes later in the car pick-up line, hugging each other with squeals of delight, jumping up and down, and laughing like they were long-lost friends who had just been reunited. My fingers interlocked this way, then that way; then the thumbs started wrestling; then the fingers unlocked and pressed flat against each other; and finally the fingertips started pressing against each other, pushing the rest of each hand apart, and looking, for all practical purposes, like a spider doing pushups on a mirror. All without my brain kicking in to stop such nonsense. Fidgeting can be distracting even if quiet.


I finally hit upon what I thought was a pretty good plan to stop even the silent finger figdeting. I placed both hands flat on the velvet with the Breviary in between them, separating them the way my mom had to separate my brother and me in the church pew to keep us from messing with each other as children. Palms flat. Check. Fingers Flat. Check. It worked! All was well.


Until I placed my hands a bit too far forward, and the middle fingertips bent down, and discovered that the board up front was loose...


And, wouldn’t you know it, the more I was able to get my external fidgeting under control, the more I realized that my internal fidgeting problem had grown stronger and needed to be addressed as well.


Later.



With prayers for your holiness,

Fr. Palka


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For those who wish to ask for prayers, discern a Vocation, or make donations:

This blog is not monetized, since, as a Catholic Priest, I don’t need much money. But if you wish to support the Filiae Laboris Mariae Sisters under my spiritual care, feel free to send them a note to: St. Joseph Convent, 1250 Hackberry Road, Redfield, KS 66769. They constantly pray, and their benefactors will get great spiritual rewards! That is also the address you can send snail mail to me. I suppose you already know or can guess my gmail address with the F*****P**** in front of it!



Monday, November 17, 2025

Part VII: Cats and Dogs: Sister Quiet vs Priest Quiet

 Part VII: Cats and Dogs: Sister Quiet vs Priest Quiet


The above photo of the chapel shows Bishop Cozzens celebrating Mass in the chapel while he was here a few weeks ago. The Sisters are in the front on both sides, while the altar boys have family sitting in the pews behind them. As a side note, which is strange, since we haven’t yet gotten into the meat of the article, there are not a whole lot of Catholics out here, so the few altar boys we do have are able to serve Mass for such dignitaries as this Bishop and Cardinal Burke (who is here this weekend, which is why this article is coming out later than normal, but that is for another story) without drawing straws or otherwise fighting about who gets to serve! These boys just think it’s normal to get a call, “Bishop/Cardinal SoAndSo will be here in the morning. Would you like to serve?”


The sound in the Chapel of the Immaculate Conception (I just found out it’s name!) is pretty amazing. At Epiphany, although I am not trying to put it down in any way, just stating reality, the sound was dead. The acoustic tiles on the ceiling, the carpet on the floor, and hundreds of people crammed together just absorbed the sound and made it very difficult to enjoy the fullness of the choir or even hear the priest at the ambo or the altar. 


Not so here. The noise, for better or worse, travels all around the inside of the building. When the Sisters chant ever so softly, the sound resonates as it should. The sound traveling and being amplified, and my part in this, is what this article is about.


You have all heard the expression Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus. Forget that when it comes to entering a chapel. A more apt description is: Men are dogs and women are cats. How so? If you have cats and dogs, try this at home. If you have a cat, cover your kitchen floor with sets of dominoes. Or plastic cups. Or Legos. Or whatever you have on hand. Then shake the box of treats. Watch what happens when the cat comes running. She will make it through the maze without missing a step, without knocking over a single item, without making a noise.


Now try the same thing with your dog. Go ahead. You can even remove half of the obstacles if you please. Shake the treats. He will come plowing full speed ahead, destroying everything in the way. If anything is left standing, it is only by sheer luck. Noise, commotion, destruction, and carnage seem to all be part of even the best dog’s nature.


It took me a couple of days to realize that “cats and dogs” is the difference between how the Sisters enter “quietly” into the chapel and how I do. Girl quiet is as different from guy quiet as girl clean is from guy clean!


The Sisters are ethereal creatures. Not so guys, even priests. Such angelic creatures make no bodily sounds unless they will it. If it weren’t for the soft swooshing of the coarse fabric of their habits and the squeak of their worn-out shoes on the floor, you wouldn’t even know that they had passed by and taken up their places in the pews.


I, on the other hand, am a guy. I was trying very hard to be quiet. But it was guy quiet. Lest you think that I am just using hyperbole, let me use an example to explain. You can determine for yourself if I am exaggerating or not in my story today.


The Sisters and I were in the chapel praying. They were, of course, all in an ecstatic spiritual state, and most were levitating at least a few inches off the floor (it’s hard to know how high they were, since their long habits cover even the empty space between their knees and their prie-dieux), so they were completely oblivious to what I am going to relate. [Another aside: the “torture devices” I described last week are actually alien technology anti-anti-gravitational devices, keeping the Sisters who were using them firmly planted on the floor. They are probably the ones who would be floating all the way up to the ceiling rafters like St. Joseph Cupertino if they were not held down by these contraptions.]


I, on the other hand, not nearly so prayerfully focused on God, heard the distinct crunching sound of a large van making its way through the gravel drive and parking lot. It no sooner stopped than the unmistakable CRUNCH CRUNCH CRUNCH of running footsteps was heard, followed by a double WHAM WHAM as two bodies smashed into the church doors. “Ha! I got here first!” came the first boy’s shout. “No fair!” replied his brother, “you were sitting in the front seat!” The howling of the wind (it is always windy in Kansas) increased as the door opened and the boys tramped in and SLAMmed the door behind them. CLOMP, CLOMP, CLOMP echoed throughout the building as they raced to the Holy Water fonts.


“BE QUIET!” one shouted to the other in boy whisper, “THE SISTERS ARE PRAYING!” Then CLOMP, CLOMP, CLOMP back to the door where he got just one foot and his head out of the open door before yelling across the parking lot, “MOM! TELL THE GIRLS TO BE QUIET WHEN THEY COME IN; THE SISTERS ARE PRAYING!”


The wind yanked the door free from his grip and SMASHed against the outside wall of the building. As he was struggling against the WHOOSHing wind to get it quietly SLAMmed closed again, the girls almost silently tiptoed inside. CLOMP, CLOMP, CLOMP, the “quiet” brother followed them to his seat...


You get the picture. So did I. From that time on, I had to work on actually being quiet, not just boy quiet, entering the chapel. But once I started to concentrate on being as quiet as possible, a horrible realization hit me. I am a fidgeter. And fidgeting noise in a silent chapel is LOUD!


That’s where I’ll pick up next week



With prayers for your holiness,

Fr. Palka


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For those who wish to ask for prayers, discern a Vocation, or make donations:

This blog is not monetized, since, as a Catholic Priest, I don’t need much money. But if you wish to support the Filiae Laboris Mariae Sisters under my spiritual care, feel free to send them a note to: St. Joseph Convent, 1250 Hackberry Road, Redfield, KS 66769. They constantly pray, and their benefactors will get great spiritual rewards! That is also the address you can send snail mail to me. I suppose you already know or can guess my gmail address with the F*****P**** in front of it!


Saturday, November 8, 2025

Part VII: What It Is Like In The Chapel

 Part VII: What It Is Like In The Chapel


Now that you know the basic community prayer schedule at the convent, let me tell you about my first experiences while joining the Sisters in the chapel.


The Sisters and I generally enter from the outside “rear” of the chapel, that is, from behind the altar, since our living quarters are back there. Any people coming to Mass or other liturgies enter from the “front” since they drive down the long gravel drive and park in the gravel parking lot in front of the church.


The Sisters, though, enter from the Gospel side, while I enter from the Epistle side. I was escorted through the Sisters’ door only once, as I was getting the grand tour, and was shown that the Sisters have, for lack of a better term, a locker room on their side. When the bell rings for prayer, they stop whatever they have been doing and come running. They have a private place where they can take off their galoshes, aprons, hats, coats, or any other work clothes that have been covering their habits, and hang them up before entering the main body of the church through a door just outside of the altar rails.


My door simply goes directly from the outside into the sacristy, and from there I can either get vested for the various liturgies and enter straight into the sanctuary or, more often, go through a small hallway on the left and enter the church opposite the Sisters’ door just outside of the altar rails.


For the first few days of praying the Office, I was watching intently, trying to figure out what they were doing so that I would know what I was supposed to be doing. They, on the other hand, kept strict custody of their eyes and didn’t look around at all. They each have their own spot in the pews, and each Sister has a container with her own necessary books in front of her kneeler. In the pew directly behind the Sisters on the Epistle side, I have my own prie-dieu (pronounced pray-do, which seems to be a Frenchicized Latin word meaning: where we “do kneel” is where we “do pray”!).


When the Sisters first enter the chapel, they bow down and place their foreheads on the floor and offer a wonderful prayer of Adoration. On leaving, they do the same, thanking God for allowing them this time together with Him. It is a beautiful tribute to their love of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament.


While this may come as a shock to those who can’t tell a man from a woman, women, as a whole, are much more elegant than men in all of their movements. Aside from an incredibly gifted man like Gene Kelly (if you young ’uns don’t know who he is, stop reading this right now and go watch a few of his clips on YouTube), who might pull this off, men would look ridiculous if they tried to imitate this move. A group of men, kneeling to pray in such a fashion, might manage to have their toes, knees, and foreheads touch the floor, but they would have to have their backsides sticking straight up in the air to do so. The Sisters, on the other hand, gently fold up like an accordion, gracefully placing themselves into something like an upright fetal position before Our Lord.


As they started their chanting, I couldn’t figure out who was leading the chant. It seems that two, or maybe three or four, Sisters lead different parts of it before the rest join in. But most of the time, the most I can figure out is whether the “leader” is standing on the right or left side of the church. Since the Psalm verses are sung alternating from side to side, that is important, so I have at least figured out the most important part. From my vantage point, they all look alike and they all sound alike. Euphonic. Melodious. Mellifluous. And maybe some other big words.


I had to learn to stand when they stood, bow low when they bowed low, sit when they sat, and kneel when they knelt. That was usually pretty easy. Until they tried, purposefully, it seemed, to throw me off. Every once in a while, one of them would jump up from a sitting position and kneel, or kneel from their standing position, hoping that I would follow suit so that they could enjoy their prank. When that didn’t work, another would try. Then another. Then a bunch at the same time. I couldn’t figure out what was really happening. They would kneel for just a few seconds and then resume their former position, and none of it interrupted the chanting.


It turns out that, just as the St. Dunstan Schola members would strike their chest if they sang an incorrect note or missed a pause, or made some other slight mistake, so it was with the Sisters and their kneeling. It’s a good thing I am not bound by that rule, or else I would never get off my knees!


There was also another mystery which I could not figure out. One of the Sisters in front of me had, next to her kneeler, a homemade wooden “thing.” During the construction of the chapel, cottages, and hall, the Sisters saw that a lot of material scraps were just being thrown away. They started collecting discarded wood pieces, and one of the Sisters acquired basic construction skills so that she could make things with them. She made several benches, for instance, to sit on in the Marian Garden. It was obvious that she had made this “thing,” too.


It looked similar to the kneeler it was sitting next to, but had no padding. 2 two-by-six pieces of wood made up the outside legs. A one-by-six piece made up the part that one would kneel on. The legs, though, were cut at an angle so that one long side of the top piece was higher than the other by a noticeable amount. It looked to me like an instrument of torture, for kneeling on it, whether sloped forward or backward, would be excruciating. I wondered just how bad her singing must be before she would have to put it to use.


And then, one day during a Holy Hour, Sister got off her prie-dieu and, kneeling on the floor, placed that “thing” behind her over her calf muscles or ankles. I would not have been able to flatten my feet and legs enough to do that, but she managed. Then she [gulp] sat back on it without screaming in pain! Knees, legs, tops of her feet, all flat on the floor under this makeshift kneel/sit thingy. She spent the rest of the Hour in that agonizing position. Guess what else? Now it seems that at least half of the other Sisters have one of those barbaric contraptions next to their prie-dieus as well!


That’s more than enough for this week. Next week, maybe I’ll highlight my own chapel foibles...



Saturday, November 1, 2025

Part VI: The Prayer Schedule!

 Part VI: The Prayer Schedule!


Last week, you saw the physical space in which I live. This week, you get to “see” the spiritual side of my new life! As I mentioned, Mother had handed me a copy of the Sisters’ daily schedule with the reminder that this was their schedule, not mine. After all, I was there to be their chaplain, not to become a male member of their community, so I was under no obligation to join them in the chapel every time they prayed as a community. But I did need to know what they were doing throughout the day. I won’t give all of the details, but here is their basic community prayer schedule. It is quite eye-opening to see how seriously this “semi-contemplative” order is about praying. The schedule does vary slightly from day to day throughout the week, but I will try to summarize it here as a general horarium. I’ll briefly explain the “Hours” of the Office a little further on.


4:00 am: The first bell rings. It’s time to wake up and get ready to begin the day.


4:30 am: Time to pray the first two “Hours” of the Divine Office, Matins and Lauds. This is followed by a 10 minute break. Nota Bene (NB): Ten minutes means ten minutes. Don’t be late getting back to your pew! Now comes a Holy Hour of silent mental prayer and then the third Hour of the Office, Prime. The Psalms vary in length, and so the time it takes to pray each Hour will also vary from day to day. But when they are completed, somewhere about 7:00 am, the Sisters rush to get some chores done.


7:30 am: The Holy Sacrifice of the Mass, followed by 10 minutes of Thanksgiving, then the fourth Hour of the Office, Terce. The Sisters then process out for their Daily Chapter and work period.


11:30 am: Prayer and spiritual reading/study period.


12:00 noon: The fifth Hour of the Office, Sext.


1:45 pm: The sixth Hour of the Office, None.


The afternoon is spent in prayer, spiritual reading, recreation, study, work, or class.


4:25 pm: Holy Hour with Exposition (or 5:00 pm: 30 minutes of mental prayer) and the seventh Hour of the Office, Vespers.


7:00 pm: Compline, the eighth and final Hour of the Office, followed by Grand Silence.


Praying the Divine Office or its modified newer version, the Liturgy of the Hours, is a hallmark of Religious Life. The various “Hours” do not take 60 minutes each to pray, but are rather called “Hours” because they are prayed at a general time of day or night. They each consist of Psalms, other Scripture readings, and hymns. Matins also includes multiple lessons from various Church Fathers, Saints, or Church documents, and, if there is a Saint’s Feast Day, a reading about the Saint. In days of old, Matins was broken into three sections, or Nocturns, recited during the night. Prime also includes a reading of the following day’s list of Saints who gave their lives for the Faith (including some small details of their glorious deaths) from the Roman Martyrology. 


This is how they are listed in the revised Liturgy of the Hours, since many of you will be more familiar with the newer set of prayers: Matins is called Office of Readings. Lauds is Morning Prayer. Prime has been eliminated. Terce is Midmorning Prayer. Sext is Midday Prayer. None is Midafternoon Prayer. Vespers is Evening Prayer. Compline is Night Prayer. 


In the Traditional Divine Office, all 150 Psalms are prayed each week, while the new Breviary (the name of the book containing these prayers) drops many of what are considered “objectionable” Psalms by modern Snowflakes. They call for judgment and disaster to fall upon the enemies of God and God’s people, and so are called the maledictory Psalms. These are Psalms—as the Douay-Rheims numbers them—5, 6, 11, 12, 35, 40, 52, 54, 56, 58, 69, 79, 83, 137, 139, and 143. Though the revised Breviary has fewer Psalms and other readings, it takes 4 weeks to get through one cycle. This is why it is sometimes half-jokingly referred to as the Liturgy of the Minutes rather than of the Hours! In case you haven’t figured it out yet, the Sisters here pray the older Office.


Anyway, as I looked at the schedule, my plan was to sleep in (a luxury I would have from now on!) until Mass time rather than to get to the chapel for the 4:30 start of the day. Except for one small problem. There is a one-hour time difference between Redfield (Central Time) and Tampa (Eastern Time). When I was here previously for a visit, my body didn’t understand what my brain did, and, since I usually woke up shortly before 5:00 am to start my day in Florida, I woke up shortly before 4:00 am in Kansas! It didn’t matter what my watch said. So the first day I figured, “What the heck? I am going to wake up anyway, so I might as well join the Sisters in prayer.” I expected it to be just a one-day thing. How wrong I was!


I set my alarm back an hour to 3:46 am. In my puny brain, by the way, 3:46 is “slightly before 4” whereas 3:45 is way too early to get up for anything other than fishing! I needn’t have bothered, for I woke up without the alarm anyway, for, as I said, my body doesn’t read the clock; it just knows (usually) what time to wake up. It will do the same thing this weekend, when the time “changes” and we supposedly get an extra hour of sleep. Ha! You might guess that I am not a fan of changing to and from Daylight Saving Time.


In my old routine, I chose to get up shortly before 5:00 am so that I could pray the early Hours of the Breviary before Mass started at 6:30 am. If I didn’t get a big chunk in then, I would be playing catch-up the rest of the day and would probably have to pray multiple Hours just before bedtime. Here, though, instead of reciting the Hours privately,  I was able to listen to and follow along with the beautiful chanting of the Hours as the Sisters’ melodious voices filled the chapel the way that I imagine the Saints and Angels fill Heaven as they sing before the throne of God.


After the first day of joining them for each Hour, I knew that this was exactly what I needed. I had asked the Bishop for a sabbatical so that I could spend more time in prayer, study, and spiritual reading. Here, I had the opportunity for more of the prayer than any priestly sabbatical would have ever included!


To be continued next week...


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